I have two big fears that I have to fight often.
Some days I have to fight harder than others.
My first biggest fear is death. Death of my family and me dealing with the loss or me dying and Emily and Frankie dealing with my loss. (I know I wont be there, but I know how I would feel and I dont want them to feel that way either)
My second fear is irony. Irony where the outcome is death.
I know that I know that I know that I am going to heaven. So is my family. But the unbearable feeling of loss is what I really fear.
My deal with irony is that I cant shake this feeling that if things in my life are going TOO well, something bad is looming around the corner waiting to happen.
Ultimately I don’t have control over the future, but Irony gives me a false sense of control. Sort of.
You have heard those stories…someone says “I have never had to suffer such a great loss” Then 2 weeks later they do suffer great losses.
You have heard people say “Oh no, you just jinxed us!” I know that the Bible does not support “Jinxes” but I still cant shake the fear despite what I know in my brain.
Or sometimes I keep coming across devotionals about women dealing with loss and instead of being encouraged by their faith and the Scriptures supporting Gods love for them, I am struck with fear and think “Oh no, I am being prepped for something terrible.”
Irony makes me fear action. What if the good thing I am about to say or do opens the door for irony to allow the exact opposite to happen. Even me writing this post seems like I am opening the door for something bad to happen. I wrote about my fears and they came true.
Its a TERRIBLE way to think and live.
But I have the Lord to help me and deliver me from this fear.
The following Scriptures are ones that I have to read and pray and say aloud to fight the fear:
Phil 4:8 Finally Brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable, if anything is excellent or praiseworthy, think about such things.
Jer 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”
James 4:7 Submit yourselves then to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.
Psalms 34:4 I sought the Lord and He heard me, and delivered me from all my fears.
I believe there is Power is the Words that God gave us in the Bible. And going through these Bible verses really truly helps me.
To be honest, I dont know how people without faith function.
Do you have a fear that you face daily?
Do you have Bible verses that you go to fight those fears?
If so, I wanna hear them 🙂